Sunday, December 31, 2000

CONFUSED: French-Canadian cowboy called me last night. He said he didn't even know why he called but that he just had an urge to talk to me. We only talked for 1/2 an hour. I wish I could just figure out why we aren't together if we can't seem to not want to be together. Does it make ANY sense whatsoever? Not to me. The only thing I have to hold on to is the unshakeable belief that we belong together. So thats what gets me through until the next phone call. Whenever that may be. He and his son are going to the Citrus Bowl parade today so I won't hear from him at the stroke of Midnight I'm pretty sure.

"Sometimes I wish I were young again. Skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts."--unknown

Saturday, December 30, 2000

Ya know...this seems very tedious seeing as how my site isn't even up yet....
Ok...Now I am beginning to feel a bit like a dunce. I just can't figure out how in the world to add a link. I am hitting the button and typing in the address but BLANK. I guess I will just have to be patient with myself while I learn the whole Blogger process.
I tired last night to add a link to the radio station the aforementioned Monsters of the Midday are on here in Orlando...but looking back I see the link didn't make it, so let me try it again...if you don't see it I apologize for wasting your precious blog reading time (but the address is Give it a visit. Its a talk station but everyone with a show there is very intertaining!!! goes...

The Gift
There is an amazing gift
It comes in all shapes and sizes
It is full of hope and joy
And countless wonders and suprises

You can see it in a smile
And in the perfect sunrise
In a simple act of kindness
And in a precious child's eyes.

Love can be seen everywhere
In every sight and every sound
Our Creator gave us this perfect gift
All we have to do is look around.

Its crude and a bit rough around the edges, but every once in a while I get the urge to rhyme a few lines and thats what comes out!

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve...I had a party to go to but lately I haven't been in the mood to deal with crowds of my son and I are going to a friend's house to have a sleepover with her kids and a couple of other friends. I think thats what I need.

Friday, December 29, 2000

Ok..ok...I have to admit it...I love Napster. Before anyone starts preaching about how the artist gets robbed and all that...let me say a few things. 1) I don't have a CD burner so thats not what I am using it for. 2) I only d/l individual songs NOT entire albums (or CDs for you younguns)..only songs I will listen to while I am playing on my puter. 3) Napster has not changed my CD buying habits at all. And as for Metallica (whom I happen to really really like) they have enough they shouldn't worry about it...right? I'm downloading some really funny stuff from the Monsters of the Midday from here in Orlando ...if you are on Napster and love irreverent humorous songs look for them!!!
SOOOO...Some of my incarnations are MOM...SINGLE WOMAN...BBW (If you have do ask don't bother)...CHRISTIAN...LIBERAL (GASP...Christian and Liberal don't often mix)...SINGER...WANNABE COMPUTER GEEK....

Of course these aren't all of here's fair warning...more could pop up at any time!!!

SINGLE WOMAN....I'm in love with a wonderful man...and he loves me...but..why is there ALWAYS a but in a good love story?...we aren't together for some odd reason...he says "some love stories just aren't meant to be written" poetic ain't it?? sad but poetic. And I would tend to agree with that, but in our case I don't think its true. I fully believe with all that is in me that our story will be written and passed down to our grandchildren's grandchildren.......

On the other hand...the man I wanted to marry 12 years ago has recently realized that he screwed up by not asking me back then and has officially proposed to me. Talk about I can't marry him...not only does my heart belong to another but I have grown so much in that long time and he hasn't. WHAT'S A GIRL TO DO????

Well...I suppose I should figure out how this works before going on much further....
THE QUOTABLE QUOTE LOVER: "Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two souls"---Aristotle

Boy its hard work being this much of a romantic sometimes. Sickening isn't it?!?!

Well with any luck the job I am temping at will be a bit more permanent. That would be such a blessing! I guess we'll know later next week.

Boy I wish my son would let me change the channel. I'm getting really sick of the Cartoon Network!!!! But I can ignore it while I chat with my friends on mIRC. YES I do have a life outside the cyber world...but its very limited! LOLOL